spring or summer
it still feels like winter
my heart goes to slumber
never getting sober

life is great. apart from being alive, theres the sun, the clouds, the sky the stars, the moon, the green pastures, birds, animals...Nights are always peaceful, its peaceful in a way, no one is there to bother you. You can hear your fan spinning, crickets chirping, et cetera. The peace keeps you calm and prepares you for another day.

Nights are also scary. Your mind wakes up to this peace and works hard. You think, you wonder, you worry, anxiety increases and you cannot fall asleep. You wish there was more peace when you're awake. You wish that you're better off dead. You wish for so many things, but you cannot reach them.

What comes true?