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I still cannot click with people who studies or have studied in junior colleges. I tried my best, but fuck, just cannot click, sorry. Im weird la. HAHA. She's coming home later! yay!! Working at brewerkz tires me out, I want to clock in at least 40 hours a week but my physical abilities do not allow me to do so. It is not I do not want to work or anything similar, but i just feel very tired and I really want more time to myself. I do not want to grow up so quickly sometimes, but come to think of it, I have already grown up.

Was talking to one of my Brewerkz friends just now. He said" Everyone has his or her dark past.". That was after I showed him the scars I had on my arm after he told me he sort of self mutilates himself when he was younger. Im always thinking most people I met, although, yes, we all have our dark pasts but most of them I met, I do not feel it like as bad. I do not know, maybe Im just being irritating. Well, I have met people who have very dark pasts, and in comparision, mine is peanuts. Well...nevermind.

Still, I feel that the world is unfair, its just that it was never unfair in my favour and that SUCKS! haha. I hope she msges me when she gets back. I dont know! I hope Im in her mind or something, even like a zap of thought which passes very fast, but still, yeah, I hope I was that mere zap.

SLEEPING TIME.