joy ride!

2007-11-10T18:00:00.000-08:00

Brace yourself for the plight of the born.
as the spotlight strips you bare.
Just a useless act in the play of life.
cast as the role of "The Lover" and I feel slightly misplace
in a world thats "Fuck of BE Fucked"
Kill the Lights.
Letch.
one more time and say it like you mean it.
Lush.
one more time and tell it like you feel it.
Lover.
You've got talent but I just dont see it.
Wrap your hook around my neck and get me off get me off get me off your stage.
In every coma-lover's kiss collides with truth.
and every tongue that slips will drip onto your bruise and I know
disguise the lies that you fed me last night
these plots are breeding grounds
for nothing but the worse and nothing could be worse and I know why.
and what do I have left?
the composer just went deaf.
the singer lost his breathe, in the glow of the crowd.
the dancer's on a crutch.
the writer drank too much.
the director lost his touch. In the glow of the crowd.
can you resist the urge to burn the script we wrote?
bring on the flood before we choke.
applause engulfs the room.
we bow into our tombs.
sing me one more line so I can sleep.
this is all you need.

my love, it follows you to your grave.

2007-08-22T01:05:00.000-07:00

you could have been my all, but now you leave me here with nothing.

2007-08-09T03:47:00.000-07:00

memories aren't for remembering, mostly just for leaving behind.

did nothing solely for anyone, cept' for her and now, you.

2007-08-03T07:18:00.000-07:00

What we're doing is so wrong, and what you're wearing is so right (it's so tight).
But I've never felt better so I'm going out to get her
and I don't care what set of wheels I steal to get there.
Balance is a minor setback.
What she thinks is all right, and the way she looks is just fine.
She sure as hell ain't you, but lord knows she'll have to do.
She don't know I'm alive but neither do I so there's nothing left to lose.
If I could only make it make you want to want me.
One more drink, I think, should do.
I wish that I could say I love to watch you walk away,
but you probably won't be back in time to hear it.
So it's just as well.
No one out there gets back in alive.
So I'll love the way you stand so close to a guy who we both know can't get near it.
Strike when ready.
Burn the highway down.
Let me hear her high heels moan.
I'm ready, set, go.
There's cocaine in the key that took us from the bar to her car to the bedroom.
Only the lonesome love us.
Only the careless can handle us.
What's wrong with us that we're so unamused?

2007-07-30T03:46:00.000-07:00

youre an actress
indulging in the limelight and of all mens eyes
and you love it
your scene is special cause no women touches it
lights shine on your plastic the camera man says passion!
poised and elegant you stand on the sidewalk
waiting to satisfy the needs of pigs who idolise you
pens waving and your DVs everywhere
you are oh so immortalised
bitch i love your Ds the small waist and the hips
the way you move your body when you start arousing
its you my misery i have got no big words to substitute simple equivilent
that describes you its you i love youre porn
love is just a union of the god blessed sunny side up and blah
means absolutely nothing to your goddammit simple mind
you perfected every single move other women cant master
the strip pole front lines with soldiers waiting to pay to view
they are desparate
you are desparate
i know you miss me but i never appear at your shows
the two timing days are over but it only takes one mistake to kill it
equipped with more than enough to just make you fucking happy
enjoy your stay darling
enjoy your stay

2007-07-26T20:49:00.000-07:00

I have 20cents in my pocket, and im a beggar.

The roads are always wet, people are always carrying their umbrellas around, and the sun is in slumber. This makes the mood a little more depressing. Wet seasons are the best when youre at home, but when you need or feel like hanging out, its a totally different story. The darkened skies makes 12pm look like 5pm. When its dark, you just feel like sleeping a little longer, and you dream a little bit more.

Nothing is as interesting as dreaming. In dreams, youre real. You can be anyone, and anything. All your wishes come true, and nothing can be in your way. There is no pain in dreams, no suffering, just pure happiness.

what is a want compared to a need? I want cash, I need cash. Does "want" sound better than "need". Does he word, need, makes it sound like youre more desparate? Are wants more important than needs or vice versa? What does each satisfy?

I need alot of things, and im desparate.

2007-07-23T01:33:00.000-07:00

Its inhumane how it actually revolves
when this karma hits its like a low blow
heartbreak, the way it sounds
the mental institution rejects all sound ones
nerve wrecking pieces to pieces it falls
when you cry
noone hears you

three times a day a prayer
when its later its never better
the days get older and nights are the same
eventual statement
"you're getting older"

fundamentals, the principles believe nothing
your belief struck a cord in my deepest train of thoughts
fast speed movement swings me by
and you charge on like
you remember nothing at all

when the day comes to end this
tracks dislocate and fall apart
i look at you in disdain and wonder
was it even right in the book of fate
that we met.

=) beancurd.

2007-07-21T04:58:00.000-07:00

morals, my fucking bullshit morals. you have some? sell them.

Don't ever ask us to define our morals
Sometimes when fundamentals
Meet teenage heartbreak
Some of us are all of us
Half-selves that love whole hopes
And hari-kiri heartbreak
There's almost nothing worse
Than never being real
Strained voices crying wolf
When nobody can hear

If I had a gun
I'd pump your ethics full of lead
If I believed in meat
I'd eat a plateful of our dead

There's merit in construction
When it's done with your own hands
There's beauty in destruction
Resurrection, another chance
There's a u and i in union
But just an i in my beliefs

There's a crashing plane with a banner
That reads "everyone's naive"

The only proof that I have
That we shot and killed this horse
Is the sounds of whips on flesh
And a bleeding heart remorse
When I'm in this state of reflection
And you hand me whips and two-by-fours
I could never bring them down
And beat the same horse as before

I'd rather kill a stupid flower
And spread it's seeds aound,

until a garden with our bullet-laden morals will be found

2007-07-18T01:15:00.000-07:00

spring or summer
it still feels like winter
my heart goes to slumber
never getting sober

life is great. apart from being alive, theres the sun, the clouds, the sky the stars, the moon, the green pastures, birds, animals...Nights are always peaceful, its peaceful in a way, no one is there to bother you. You can hear your fan spinning, crickets chirping, et cetera. The peace keeps you calm and prepares you for another day.

Nights are also scary. Your mind wakes up to this peace and works hard. You think, you wonder, you worry, anxiety increases and you cannot fall asleep. You wish there was more peace when you're awake. You wish that you're better off dead. You wish for so many things, but you cannot reach them.

What comes true?

2007-07-14T22:01:00.000-07:00

the more you know, the harder it is to take decisive action. Once you become informed. You start seeing complexities and shades of grey. You realise that nothing is as clear and simple as it first appears. Ultimately, knowledge is paralyzing. Being a man of action, I cant afford to take that risk. HEH.

Im ignorant, but at least I act on it.

2007-07-13T07:51:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Eric, Phoebe, Rachel and Cindy for accompanying me.

For the fucking account, I, SIWEI, do not give a shit about how people look at me. I live with my own principles and my own rules, so if you cannot fucking stand me, or want to show me that you're far more superior than me, go away. I have no wish to compete or prove anything. All I want is to do better for everything, for myself, that is why I try and I accept failures. If you're the kind of person who is F.A.K.E, leave me alone too, cos if you cannot be yourself, I dont see a fucking point I should want to know you and befriend you. Get what I mean?

and yeah, there are some people whom I do not like at Brewerkz, but fuck, I dont think they like me either, so why should I give a shit. I can fucking write your names here, but hey, I love peace, so try not to make me angry, really.

bottomline, dont fucking put up a show in front of me, and try to be nice, show your true self, and i'll respect you for who you are, for I dont judge people, I accept people for what they are.

2007-07-11T16:12:00.000-07:00

*
dear grandma
you didnt cry
all you did was fight
i held your hands for the last time
and i didnt see you for the last time
i admire how you fought
despite the hair loss
and the loss of everything
you fought
and now you left
may you be rid of the pain
rest in peace my grandma
i'll think of you now and then

ps rest in peace grandma. The only thing im sorry about all my late grandparents, is that i never ever will have the chance again to give them back all the love they have given me.

2007-07-10T02:50:00.000-07:00

Daily encounters, put into words, signifies nothing, nothing at all. Words, are just plain useless single alphabets married to further convey what you see and hear. These words practise fidelities and often have more than just one partner. They usually have different rituals, for example, "noun", pronoun", possessive pronoun", et cetera. Marrying a "I" and a "S" gives you a IS, whereby it IS always used, regardless of the context. "IS this your pen?", "IS she your steady?", "IS your mum married?", and whatever you can think of.

Communication is a powerful tool. In this society, we sell ourselves, both talent and our body. A hot young lady with 32Cs and a 24W gets a job much easier. Sterotyping? Maybe, but SEX sells! Its sad, but hey, true. Talent, on the other hand, takes effort. I cant blame you for not having a hot body, but I can blame you for not being able to sell your talent. Even if you have none, you should be able to talk me into "buying" you. We all communicate everyday, essential. Fact is, how much is absorbed into the other person's mind when you actually communicate, and how much do you want that person to absorb and understand, is a very difficult thing to achieve.

I'll say, the only word you guys absorb when you read the above paragraph, is the word SEX. My point, SEX sells, ese.

*
The wonderful, magical world of Lidenwood, where animals enjoy the ample busking under the shining rays of the sun and the never ending flow of clear, clean water. Lidenwood, where the tall green trees lushes throughout the year, protecting the young, new lives emerging. Kept in a constant state of cool, precious herbs thrives, only to be discovered.
Discovered? Or do they want to be discovered?
Mankind, the ones whose eyes light up at the sight of wealth and power, lives along the outskirts of Lidenwood. For years, the woods have been protected by environmentalists from everywhere. Saving the trees and animals from the evil plans of these mankind, whereby to rid the forest off its precious greens and the land it covers. Do these mankind know of what they do? What ever happened to shamspwood? The forest where unicorns travel a day just to get to the other end, the forest where fairies build their magic residence just to keep peace and safety within. Gone. Mankind, as they claim, loves mother nature, but yet, ironically, destroys it.

ps LIVEEARTH?, the concert held. Okay, first thing, I do appreciate musicians playing music in support of saving the Earth's ecosystem and all. Think. Message sent across by various were, "USE LESS CARS", "STOP POLLUTING THE WATERS", images shown were INDUSTRIAL WASTE, FAST FOOD. Sounds very USansA? Come on, cars, in reality, we all say: "YEAH ITS ALRIGHT TO WALK." Seriously, fuck you, who the fuck in this fast paced society wants to walk? Who the fucking hell even appreciates a sunset? Or just the clouds moving above you? Or just the way you're protected from the harmful UV rays of the sun? Hardly.

I think, the simpliest plan, ARMAGEDDON, if it exists, i wouldn't mind. Lets just, start all over again?

2007-07-09T15:53:00.000-07:00

*
Maybe you don't understand it,
what keeps them awake at night
What goes through their little minds
when you turn off the light?
Always having to say sorry
tears are stained on the pillow
Like the light of the moon
they can't be one
Can't exist without the sun
Let's think clearly for a while
Can he shine without a smile?

Why am I alone with no one to be found?
Looks like they know what's best for me
Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand?
Guess I'll have to crawl inside and
I don't know why I'm sitting by myself,
when the problem isn't mine

Been around the block a few times,
been beat up by all his friends
Learing life is like a maze that never seems to end
Like an open book, blank pages left for only him to write
Life is short
this chapter takes so long
Can't tell the right from the wrong
It's so hard for you to place
An expression on his face

Why am I alone with no one to be found?
Looks like they know what's best for me
Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand?
Guess I'll have to crawl inside and
I don't know why I'm sitting by myself,
when the problem isn't mine
Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand
Why my friends and family left me
At six years old he won't be taught a meaning to this mess
He'll just have to take a guess,
and make his own plan
And we'll never see the child that was forced to be a man

2007-07-08T12:50:00.000-07:00

okay this is what happens, i always drink at home before i go out, and its always barcadi rum or 151, neat. So Im always on the high side, and so if i drink more, i get wasted, and thats the whole point. Okay and i dont give a shit about getting drunk, although people around me will have a problem with me, im still learning how to be drunk and sober at the same time, so i'll drink more. Like last night, i went out, my parents were not home till like 830pm, so i drank again, actually they are quite dumb cos i already finished 2 bottles of their spirits before and they still leave the new bottles in the cupboard, HAHA, good for me though. So i drank half a new bottle, and so im happy and high, then i went to yck, then i went to boat quay, drank 3 pints of beer in quick successions, then, over to magaritas, 2 in quick successions, then, 2 corona in quick successions, then i think i took barons, and then i puked, then i got drunk and ugly.

ps I'll drink till i turn blue and live another day

2007-07-07T06:02:00.000-07:00

*
I cant dream anymore, since you left
i miss you singing me to sleep
i cant wake anymore, in your arms
I miss you singing me to sleep

cheer up my friends all say.

ps doing nothing is the new trend! so is being a nerdtarty. The popup called partypoker.com just popped up on my screen and i hate it so im gonna close it. Its gone. Im tired but i cant fall asleep and its another stuffy night so im gonna go fetch myself a glass of ice filled water to cool myself down, and so i did. Im hardcore so what, like phoebe's sister's fiance said in FRIENDS: "I guess im just impulsive to be romantic.", i guess i am, but i usually do it with the wrong people. I feel that my life is in a mess now but im not really sure if it is. I still feel happy at times but not really happy but i know im still happy at times. Im an actor! Im really trying very hard to be very serious but i just cant cos its not me, im serious with certain things but most people think that those things are just not important but its important to me. Why cant we just make love and not war? i should go to bed.

2007-07-03T14:55:00.000-07:00

*
I've been trying to reach you
but my extension cord wouldnt reach that far

ps waiting waiting waiting we spend most of our lives waiting, time is ticking, theres no stopping, sing a song of heart breaking tune and make yourself cry, for all we know, is all we still do not. Memories are dead, but still tattoed on your brain, always there. 20 years of this life doesnt seem to mean anything, look back and sigh and sigh another one. Sit on your bedroom floor and wonder, the greater plans of life. you look back and sigh yet another...

2007-07-01T19:30:00.000-07:00

*
like a bad star
im falling faster down to her
shes the only
one who knows
what it is to burn.

ps Is there a greater plan awaiting so I cannot get what I want now?

2007-06-29T01:55:00.000-07:00

*
I made a magic wand today
maybe i'll wish myself away
next to the ocean where birds sing
these are a few of my favourite things

ps AMY REID is the TIU.

2007-06-27T00:52:00.000-07:00

*
its words you'll never say
the ones that i really hope i wont hear
that last goodbye i heard
was your lowest of tolerance, suddenly
empty house echos the wails of this never anymore

forgot what we fought for, hard as i might
dont have the will to fight
hang ups and non replies never reciprocated
the feelings i had for

*Im already a few days overdue
like postage posted wrongly
the mail and receiver will never meet
and there was no address to "return to if posted wrongly."

are you getting better
any better from any matter
the last words still doesnt convey anything
and you'll never taste this
"i miss you"

2007-06-24T16:07:00.000-07:00

What do you like about music?

to begin with...everything.

2007-06-24T07:38:00.000-07:00

" just when i opened up my heart"
"the one you used to love came and ripped it right apart"

am i fucking right?

so eventually girls grow up to be prettier than how they were and guys, whom the girl used to like but they didnt like them last time since they were ugly, came back to grab this opportunity since the girl is prettier(and they're lonely)than last time hoping for a chance to be with them since they're prettier and in addition, the girl used to like them so, why not? wooing is easier, everything is easier.

girls are dumb. lying through your teeth is easy but never, never try to lie to someone whos vast experience exceeds what you think of him. i see things through fucking easssssssy. ED ED ED ED ED ED ED ED ED ED ED ED ED.

im too fucking honest, really, but fuck you, i hate liars, esp girl liars who lie for guys to guys wooing them when you girls say "hes just my friend la". hey, you aint come i aint gonna die, but if you want to kill me, load you gun with bullets and hit me with the god awful truth. stop pretending you'll never fall in love, fuck that, we're all looking for love, and you know it. ah, and its always EASY to woo someone who likes you, guys aint dumb you see.

i enjoyed my tequila shots combo today, esp the one called "marsbars", but 7 is way too little to kill me. make it 21 the next time fellas.

i'll say, in multiples of 7, till i bend over and puke, now thats love.

2007-06-23T07:12:00.000-07:00

idiotic koreans said i looked like one today, at least the comment came from a 'well endowed' girl, then followed by her friends. They didnt believe i was singaporean, so is that a good thing or a bad thing? This korean girl told me her name, some 'ann jink' name i dont really know how to spelll it out, shook my hand and asked me to go korea with her. Well miss, i would have agreed if i dont really have memories here in singapore, so thank you.

why must my deployment always be at the 7000s. Its never fun working that area on a friday and i worked mr.superman shift today from 12pm to 130am. HEH.

saw a girl that looked like her and the other one that looked like you. Was thinking if it was really any of you walking past me, i hope its not.

wow. another saturday to burn at work. 6pm till 130am. Just dont let it be 7000s again. I'll appreciate it a whole lot.

i wish i could really fake a smile, at least a more real one.

2007-06-22T01:36:00.000-07:00

sorry for the shitty morning I gave you, and fuck the previous post, thats fucking all.

*
Broken heart again today
the flowers that i gave to you have withered all away
just when i opened up my heart
the one you used to love
came and ripped it right apart
why do i never seem to learn that
love is wrong
and girls are fucking evil
i guess i'll never figure out
what womenkind is all about
i heard your voice again today
im scarred by all the lies
that were once promises youd made
i lie in bed awake at night
and wonder what went wrong
or even more just what went right
why do i never seem to learn that
love is wrong
and girls are fucking evil
i guess i'll never figure out
what womenkind is all about

love is wrong.

2007-06-21T08:08:00.000-07:00

I miss you. I saw you leave just now, but I didnt call out your name. I think of you now and then and then and now and now you're still on my mind. I want to see you. I want to message you and tell you I miss you but I always do the opposite nowadays. I do not want anything I do to be obvious anymore but its always the opposite. The opposite, I like you but you do not. Im upside down.

*
Its words you forget
to annivasary songs
the bottles bite back
your tolerance wrong
your good intentions count for little more
if you're sorry
why wage war?
im not fully convinced
theres something wrong with this
could another point of view
be biased and untrue?
tear me away from you
will you be my valentine
if im a world away
apologies
are breaking me
constants arent so constant anymore
two days i wait for
calls to come through
tonight for me translate
to yesterday to you
bend and you wave
you're barely away
i wish i could say tonight
when you bend and wave goodbye
youd take me with you
will you be my valentine
if im a world away
apologies
are breaking me
constants arent so constant anymore

will you be my valentine?

2007-06-19T07:29:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, its better to give up than persevere, because there will either be no outcome or the outcome sucks. SO, I'll say, fuck it, and guys shouldn't blog about emotions. On the other hand, its ironic how I can give up on math and not girl(s). This life is ironic indeed, but fuck, I'll turn 'ironic' to my favour.

Giving up is actually a way of saying "I win.", but what's there to gain? While failure, makes more sense, since we always want to gain something, in this case, lessons. IRONIC. hahaaa.

So, failure is better.

*
I can't stay over you
it seems we drive forever
and can never get away from here
well just one more try
i'm guessing you are over me
i guess its bravery
cos its black out the window
and you sleep in the passenger seat
so when its always on your mind
but you never speak of the name
its in your blood
and your face
i'm certain its fame
so i'll stay out in the car cos the weather
has gotten to me
but its really these roadsigns and freeways
that i cant take
this cant be how you live
its like a
ball and chain round your waist
or a simple state
your minds sick again
im tasting nothing before the words
"please dont leave me."
and its dark in the winter
so your ideas start to sleep
well your head is spinning like that carousel
and i know you're a mess after a three or four
but if you make it different
we'll make our way to the surface
and your favourite place
where we sit and breathe
cause i
know all the words and i sing you everything
they're just thoughts
so go ahead and speak

so pick out what you like.

2007-06-18T16:50:00.000-07:00

Its irritating how much you want to know something for sure, although you know that the answer is something that you won't want to hear. These days...

*
Posessions never meant anything to me
im not crazy
well that's not true, I've got a bed and a guitar
and a dog named dog who pisses on my floor
that's right I got a floor
so what, so what, so what?
I've got pockets full of kleenex and lint and holes
where everything important to me
just seem to fall right down my leg
and on to the floor
my closest friend linoleum, linoleum.
supports my head
give me something to believe
Thats me, on the beach side combing the sand
metal meter in my hand
sporting a pocket full of change
thats me on the street with the violin under my chin
playing with a grin
singing gibberish
thats me on the back of the bus
thats me in the cell
thats me inside your head

thats me inside your head.

2007-06-16T00:00:00.000-07:00

Its another tired week, and will be another the next. Its okay, since I enjoy my work, somehow.

"The only way its right is to fake everythings' okay, is to make everything okay.", the former sounds better.

Simple pleasures are easy. As ironic, we're all not simple, thus, simple pleasures are difficult. The simpliest things we do that actually make ourselves feel happy, allowing us to release that little smile, so simple, yet so difficult.

"Break it off or let's get together.", true, but rather, why glue it when you want to destroy it in the end?

What's the best day of your life?

*
No more waiting on them
as you rise inside new rooms
It's official you've gone
and you can live for noone else
man the guilt must be huge
As there's no gain in failure
you suceed at being mine
yeah old friend, see you there
I will be proud from afar
I can paint a picture
in a moment of memories
and there aren't many left
I am extradited, uninvited
Its just another Saturday
take a step to freedom
you and her loathing this cruel world
take a breath of shelter
and exhale trust and allegience
liberate yourself from hell

Its just another Saturday.

henceforth

2007-06-12T00:43:00.000-07:00

I'm thankful that I have broken up with Sophia. Much has been learnt from the incident and now, thinking back, it all seemed like I was the one who didn't actually grow up at that point in time. This is heartfelt, not sour grapes.

The process of growing up, the process of crash and experiencing different kinds of things that you least expect it, makes you a much stronger and sensible person. Bullshit, yes, but unless you went through that period of hell, you'll never know what I mean.

Ever since that incident, I've realised friends play a very important role in our lives and without them, this life is just meaningless. The ones who will eventually be there, apart from your parents, are your friends. I was blinded, well I was, by love, lust, whatever you call it. There was never balance between my lover and my friends, it was always the lover dominating, and I got further away from my friends.

Days passed like years then as I was trying to get myself back. During then, I made new friends, I lost some friends. I was expecting a change in myself again, another major change, some friends just could't take it and left. Its sad but I guess you can't expect everyone to accept any kind of change in you all of a sudden, so, you gain some, you lose some. The funny thing is, I feel that they do not actually know what I was feeling back then. The feeling of Losing someone that was once so important to you. Its hard to convey this form of rage as well as pain.

I also feel there is not much point making too many friends, I'll leave that to another time.

At this point of time, what I'm feeling is blue. This colour never changes, and I'm so used to taking blames I just take them, its so easy. It makes everyone happy as well. Its hard to defeat one's purpose of blaming you for something when they just want to escape from it. Is it so difficult to just take blame? Try it for once will you?

I'd rather make everyone happy than be happy myself.

fckufcae

2007-06-11T16:09:00.000-07:00

Im going to quit smoking for good, and I mean it.

IRRITATING.

DOuche

2007-06-09T23:06:00.000-07:00

Im already very honest. I mean Im too honest with you. I admit everything and all, tell you the reasons why. They say honesty is the best policy, yeah..the best..........

ARGH!

2007-06-07T02:03:00.000-07:00

I could be brown!
I could be blue!
I could be violet sky!
I could be hurtful!
I could be purple!
I could be anything you like!
Gotta be green!
Gotta be mean!
Gotta be everything more!

Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

FIGHT

2007-06-07T01:17:00.000-07:00

OOH. I cant wait for Transformers. 7.4.7

Autobots vs. Decepticons. =D

summerwinds; dessertstars; 2words; we'll be on our way

2007-06-06T01:52:00.000-07:00

These words were never spoken to be undone
Time was consumed by every second which meant nothing
Every 5 I took I think of you
and I'd rather be stranded alone.

Its like I just lost a best friend
Someone who never would mean anything
Turns out into someone who grabs me by the heart,
Unknowingly.

As I write this note,
of a car passing by looking for lots
in any empty carpark,
just not knowing where to go

Its like I just lost a best friend
Someone who never would mean anything
Turns out into someone who grabs me by the heart,
unknowingly.

I see you so much clearer than you see me.
Ask me why the sun rises in the east
and why does my heart set for you
never in the east but within you.

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I still hope for nothing, but it just feels so bad to know Im not calling you or sending you messages just cause I do not want to trouble you from my own emotions. I just want to stand beside you again and get close to your sweetside, but my head thinks otherwise. Just like you, I hate to impose, you'll just never know how difficult it is to do what Im doing.

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All that I have, 26 dollars and the keys to a cadilac.

I miss you la.

=)

2007-06-04T19:22:00.000-07:00

Nevermind, things are hard at times.

June4thmiddaysun

2007-06-04T16:04:00.000-07:00

I don't really care what happens next. School mailed me some "failure to attend school" kind of mail. I got into shit with my mum again. FUCK I hated this morning, scolding at 6am, 8am and 2pm. I wonder HOW she ever thought of such shitty methods to screw herself and me up.

FUCK. Im not a childish piece of shit, alright. Im just being myself, and if theres anyone who cant take it, just tell me or keep it to yourselves.

FUCK. This is all like repetitive, and it goes on and on. Until the day you die or whatsoever. Getting reprimanded just makes you feel so fucked when you know you have been trying to do well and all. Seriously, just give me $1000 a month, pay my phone bills and internet bills, I'll just stop doing my part time and study real hard for this fucked up repeated semester. You think working on weekends is enough to keep me alive? NO. I work on weekends, plus weekdays. The days that I actually play and you complain is when some fucking letter comes dropping in. Fuck the school. Im a mess? Yeah, you got it right. I am a mess, but when will you fucking grown ups realise theres more to life than what you all have been telling me? Why do all of you seem to learn so much but in the end, words that come out from your speak holes are all shit and common sense? STUDY? STUDY. When will you all EVER admit your own mistakes and say you have said something wrong?! Im messed up, right, I am.

And seriously, liking someone is bullshit.

2007-06-01T15:28:00.000-07:00

I am someone who can't make a girl happy. A girl can only be mine if she is willing to withstand all my nonsense. I am too demanding, I am impatient, I am selfish, but I don't really give a fuck.

This afternoon, I felt like shit again. Although I told myself never to feel like shit over another girl again, I did on quite a few occasions. Like earlier this afternoon, when I was still sleeping, I had to msg this girl and feel like shit on the bed when all she could say was "sorry". I do not need the sorries you give. I know you don't like me or whatever, but you're being too nice to me, and I do not get any wrong ideas, I still know you wont like me.

You're the girl whom I woo-ed the longest, and I'll never do it again on another.

Hitler, the dictator, massive killing of jews and..

2007-06-01T00:11:00.000-07:00

Its epic, the worst has yet to come, and it is going to be EPIC.

-play some music and i'll add some beats.

have you ever tasted sin?

2007-05-31T15:38:00.000-07:00

Sin tastes abit like tobasco. Its sour but the after effects are spicy and you may upset your stomach if taken in huge doses. I like it though, so you should try some too.

She's back! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Do you care if I don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight? Will you think of me?
Will I shake this off? Pretend its all okay?
That there's someone out there who feels just like me,
there is.

A medication box is useful when you're injured, most people call it the First Aid box. It has almost everything an injured person needs, but if it is not utilised by a trained professional, medications are useless due to the lack of knowledge of each purpose. An injured person may still die eventually.

Everyone thinks they know everything. Whatever they have in their minds, is a fixed set of theory that another individual needs to take time to comprehend. This fixed set of theory is difficult to change, and it makes people arrogant, ignorant and sometimes even a fuckface. Is it really so difficult to accept what another individual tell you? What if what they say actually makes sense and it is the world's stand? What if, you fuse your own theory with another and make more sense out of it?

The way we are brought up, the common beliefs that our parents passed downed to us varies tremendously as we grow older. That is why some of us rebel. Rise against to those who opposed our own thinking. Eventually, if we follow what we believe and continue taking what's right for ourselves, it'll be fine I guess.

I was thinking of asking you to be my girl, if you're reading this?! Although I think the answer will be the usual "I dont know." and I really do feel like slapping your forehead, but no choice la! Like you said, you're naturally an ass, hahahah!

So should I ask ANOT?!!!! tell me laaaaaaaaaaa.

post hardcore

2007-05-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

I still cannot click with people who studies or have studied in junior colleges. I tried my best, but fuck, just cannot click, sorry. Im weird la. HAHA. She's coming home later! yay!! Working at brewerkz tires me out, I want to clock in at least 40 hours a week but my physical abilities do not allow me to do so. It is not I do not want to work or anything similar, but i just feel very tired and I really want more time to myself. I do not want to grow up so quickly sometimes, but come to think of it, I have already grown up.

Was talking to one of my Brewerkz friends just now. He said" Everyone has his or her dark past.". That was after I showed him the scars I had on my arm after he told me he sort of self mutilates himself when he was younger. Im always thinking most people I met, although, yes, we all have our dark pasts but most of them I met, I do not feel it like as bad. I do not know, maybe Im just being irritating. Well, I have met people who have very dark pasts, and in comparision, mine is peanuts. Well...nevermind.

Still, I feel that the world is unfair, its just that it was never unfair in my favour and that SUCKS! haha. I hope she msges me when she gets back. I dont know! I hope Im in her mind or something, even like a zap of thought which passes very fast, but still, yeah, I hope I was that mere zap.

SLEEPING TIME.

mood

2007-05-28T05:50:00.000-07:00

I miss someone. I miss someone.I miss someone. My phone is too quiet. My phone is too quiet. My phone is too quiet.

I got cheated today. CHEATED, and I swear I will never ever do that thing again no matter what happens.

I was never motivated. I was never motivated. To do anything. I'd rather feel motivated. I'd rather.

I'd like to...I'd love to...

School school school. Fuck school la. Fuck school again. Shitty Mondays, shitty people, shitty class, fuckfaces.

HUNGRY HUNGRY HUNGRY. School, cheap food, lousy food, same shit. BLOG BLOG BLOG. Useless.

A series of questions were never answered. Never answered. Idiots all around. Pisses me off. FUCKFACES.

poprocks and coke

2007-05-26T16:35:00.000-07:00

Light the fire, light the fire, light the fire. Chug chug chug! I have no time to do anything. I have so much time to do everything. I make decisions that I do not make 6 years back. I make decisions for the future good rather than a moment of impulse. Is this proof that I have grown up? Or has every any other been doing this since 6 years ago? I feel I learn more than the others about what this life is all about. I feel old inside, feel that I haven't been doing any thing childish for the past 2 years, feels so mundane, so stagnant. At 20, should I already have achieved something? Like a business or maybe accomplish something, so that people around me, who know me will be in awe? Or is 20 really too young a age to have achieved something this major? Why are there reports saying that there are 25 year olds who are in charge of business and making a name? What makes this special then, the age right? They are young and they marked a spot. Money cannot be everything, but in Singapore, it seems like it almost is. The pursue of passion fails most who really damage themselves just to make their passion a reality. This nation concentrates on the creme of the crop, passion, lucky ones who make it, are seen as jems, but what about those who are trying? Those who cannot make it, what happened to them?

Everywhere you turn, it'll be a turning point. Noone can direct you where to go but yourself, either you make a right turn or a wrong turn. When we're young, a wrong turn is inevitable. That is where we learn? Or is it time we wasted turning? Should we have listened to our parents when we were younger so we can turn correctly? If I agree to this point, then my 1234,1234 post is contradicted.

I should be going out!

my straight face

2007-05-25T03:48:00.000-07:00

I keep listening to "The last song I'll ever write for a girl". I don't know why, but its an old and all time favourite.

"I guess I'll never figure out, what womenkind is all about." TRUE.

Random, I have nothing to do and I can't fall asleep, so I type.
Wanted to buy a book today, but I'm restrained by the stupid thing called MONEY, the book is called 'Things I Loved'.
Working later at 12pm, please let me wake up at 10am, PLEASE.
This girl went to Tokyo just now, and will be gone for a week.=(
Ate MEE POK again, cos I like it and I don't want to eat curry rice.
Suppose to go to a chalet later, but I have to work.SORRY.
Im working alot, I have the intention to play but at the same time I need to survive.
Woke up at Eric's house today, he looked quite frustrated and tired.SIGH.
I should be sleeping.

I have a new clock on my blog.LOOK LEFT!
I'm blogging like a girl this post.

I am so bored.

for "music lovers"

2007-05-23T08:36:00.000-07:00

"I love anyone who is into the music. When people take it a step too far into fashion and personality,
that's when I shut off. I have a difficult time embracing fans who love the side effects more than
the actual music. Listen to music, not artists, let the art speak for itself."
-Anthony Green

yep, Anthony said whatever I wanted to.

to fall in

2007-05-22T04:36:00.000-07:00

What is it like to fall in love?

Well, say the object of your affection walks by...

First, your heart falls into your stomach and splashes your innards.
All the moisture makes you sweat profusely.
This condensation shorts the circuits to your brain and you get all woozy.
When your brain burns out altogether, your mouth disengages and you babble like a cretin until she leaves.

Medically speaking.

let me start this from the day we met...

2007-05-20T23:41:00.001-07:00

Sometimes, I do not want to complain, but at times when I look at friendster accounts and saw poseurs, i just get very irritated. How the fuck do you define poseurs? Like Aiden? Yes, those retards are, and so are those here who IDOLISE them. Singapore is fucked la, everyone does things cause everyone is doing it, and when you try to really be different, you get scolded, what the fuck right?

There are retards here who claim themselves "artistic", "a music lover"...but fuck, its like, aiyerrr! The fucking music industry screwed it all anyway. $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $ $, fame, dressed up to fit in, this is what is happening.

Poseurs, just fuck off really.

pher-ed

2007-05-18T04:22:00.000-07:00

I am all about you now. I know it and I mean it. The past is over and it really is. You're so uncertain about everything, but I want to be the one who assures you everything is going to be alright. Just...for one day, be mine.

NIGHTS!

1234 1234

2007-05-17T02:18:00.000-07:00

"You, you try, you try to get by",
"You'll never pull it off.",
"You shouldn't even try.".
"You're a wet cigarette.",
"You're always 2nd best.",
but they're never gonna give a shit about anybody but themselves. You fight for them to realise, there's more to life, there's more to you, there's more than meets the eye. And when you're done, the battles' been won, you sit back and smile and this is what you hum, you hum.. 12341234!

The years go by, the time it does fly. Every single second is a moment in time that passes oh, so quick and it seems like nothing, but when you're looking back, well it amounts to everything. I've got myself, I've got my friends, I've got my little family, but that's not where it ends. This one goes out to you, it goes out to everyone. Its in the name of honesty cos life has just begun..12341234!

Look around little brother, can you tell me what you see? You're a big boy now so take responsiblity. You never had it hard and now its getting tough so you whine whine whine and say you had enough. You say Im full of shit, that Im a hypocrite, I shouldn't talk when I can't take the advise that I give. Well maybe you're right, but open your eyes, the main difference here is I TRY TRY TRY.

NEVER QUIT TRYING, NO MATTER HOW FUCKING HARD THIS FUCKING LIFE TAKES YOU TO. LIFE IS A FUCKED UP ROAD TRIP THAT LEADS YOU TO GOD KNOWS WHERE, BUT FUCK, EVENTUALLY, IVE GOT MY FUCKING LIFE TO TALK ABOUT, UNLIKE FUCKED UP KIDS. FUCK YOU ALL!!!
TRYTRYTRYTRYTRY.

I LOVE MY FUCKING LIFE.

a perfectlynormal day.

2007-05-15T03:33:00.000-07:00

I do not know why, it is just so special the feeling you give me. I do not mind anything. I will not mind anything. I have been writing about you so much, someday I wish you'll read my blog. I miss you all the while, yet I cannot tell you that all the time. I want to see you so much, and a mere movie just ain't enough. Even so, I can't tell you all this so often, cos you're not mine. I reserve myself to telling you all these things, cos Im scared you might feel irritated and just walk away. Im so scared you'll just sub-consiously push me away again. I wish we'll remain like this, but I just want to do so much more with you. I can take it slow, just for you. I can do everything in your pace, just for you. I will wait till you tell me you feel for me, even if it is a no, I'll be happy just to know you. I want a sign from you, I want you to know that Im not another stupid guy who likes a girl for the moment. I want you to know Im really into you. Let's not talk about love, cos love is too far fetched now. This ain't love yet, but I know how i feel for you, I know Im serious, but please don't be scared.

For once, or even the last time, put in some feelings again. I'll never want to disappoint, yet I won't want to hold you back.

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2007-05-09T02:09:00.000-07:00

Let's just go out for a stroll shall we? I do miss you like crazy and all i want to see is your pretty face.

There is this girl, whom, by just being herself, makes me feel as though I am home again. Her constant ignorance of what I feel towards her makes everything sweeter. It is like an emotional roller coaster ride, not knowing what is going to happen next. It can be a 36o degree turn, just a normal bend or even, an unstable ride, with the feel of flying off the track.

Whatever it is, I know I want to be in this girl's life.

NO.1 hitlist

2007-05-03T01:08:00.000-07:00

This is a list of vulgarities I use, from the most to the least.

1. FUCK.
2. FUCK YOU.
3. FUCK YOU AGAIN.
4. CB
5. LJ
6. KAN CB(applies for Chiang only, fucking tension seeker. HA)
7. FUCK LA.(I dont usually LA after a sentence.)
8. CHEEEEEEE..
9. KAN CHEE eh.
10. FUCK YOUR mum.(sorry)

As you can see, most of it is fuck, so I guess Im really not so fucking vulgar. Unlike fucking BENGS who go fucking PCB or fucking LJ, or KNNBCCB, Im considered, "demure" in a way.

I love myself for those estrogen I have inside me. Hugs.

BYE.

2007-04-29T03:17:00.000-07:00

OOOOOOOOOOH. A day at work left me all tired, actually not really, its my legs which are hurting, but whatever lerrr.
Time clocked in:5:54pm time clocked out:1:33am

Whats a cute guy? Like what is cute to a girl? I want curly hair, so I can be cute too.

WHAT THE hell. Ignore me, this is total bullshit.

I need my sleep.
BYE

another day.

2007-04-28T04:30:00.000-07:00

I blog at weird times, like now, 4 in the wee morning and Im blogging, brain juice flowing, although I need none at all to compose a piece of crap like this.

I wonder how I ever survive taking NIGHT RIDERS home. It is always -20 degrees on NR2, and if I take NR7 from tanah merah and transfer at somerset, it usually takes 3 hours. Takes a long time and freezes my grey matter as well.

OKAY. thats it, I need my sleep.
BYE

27th

2007-04-27T16:30:00.000-07:00

If you realise, I blog everyday, because my life is so boring and there is really nothing much to do. So might as well, sit in front of the pc and type some nonsense and try to make myself feel more useful. Nevertheless, I'll never feel as useful, cos Im just a piece of rubbish, the only place I belong is the waste disposal, in short, BIN.

Oh, girl rockers are cool. Meg & Dia, especially Meg, she got me hooked, looks so cherry like. Lisa Marx, that metal hot chick with white short hair, OOOFF! Hayley, don't think I have to describe that eh? HAHAHAH.

The weather is humid, with light drizzle and little sunshine. The humid part spoilt it all, it should be cooling, then at least I'll have the motivation to nap, BUT so humid how to nap?! Gonna sweat like mad if I do so. CRAP LA. Theres no more coca cola left as well, luckily there is still some cigarettes. LUCKY.

post mid autumn//////

...and so the frog was never kissed by the princess. THE END.

2007-04-27T01:32:00.000-07:00

I feel so smashed. Like a meteor just hit me at full velocity but I survived cos Im a super hero.(*check previous post: Superheroes) The only one thing that can destroy me is emotion. This radioactive form of attack has been improved by evil Dr. I-hate-this-world. To further enhance this form of energy, he fused women together with it. With twice the power of a women and the improved technology, its lethal. One hit of emotion could turn you very EMO. EMO, like the word suggest, is EXTRA MANLY OVERDRIVE. It makes you wear your sister's jeans, have crappy hairstyles that cover your eyes(Nicky, Im not saying you, we're both EMO, HAHA), and you cry hell alot. So IT IS UP TO ME, the SUPER HERO, to destroy this form of lethal force and SAVE THE WORLD!!!! YEEE HAAA!!!

was never feeling this bad

2007-04-26T11:58:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOOO. Im ill. Im having a fever, still. Its worse now, plus a sore throat and some cough and a blocked nose, way cool!

I feel like shit cos being ill makesy ou feel like shit, I feel like shit cos I don't know what am I suppose to do with the girl Ilike, I feel like shit cos I cancelled my shift today cos Im sick, I feel like shit cos I didnt msg her at all.

Everyone's telling me: "Follow her pace.". Alright! Im following, but I just feel that sometimes she's just pushing me away. I really just need to know what she is thinking. What? I've known her for like maybe say, 3 weeks? Hmm, time passes fast, but still Im stuck here.

My "English" name is Rex, that is, at Brewerkz, Im starting work this saturday. As for my other part time job, well, I can only say, Im sorry. I can't believe I actually gave myself an "English" name, bear in mind, "ENGLISH" name, not CHRISTIAN name.

I FEEL LIKE SHIT!

c is for...

2007-04-25T01:01:00.000-07:00

Im ill. Maybe you can ask me: "How are you feeling now?", "You want to go rest?" or "Take care alright?".

You're moody. I'll ask: "Are you feeling better?", "Want to tell me about it?", "Just say la.".

I guess you just really don't like me as much as I like you. Or maybe, you'll never like me at all.

2007-04-23T07:00:00.000-07:00

Boys are lame, but still, I think romance is the greatest thing alive, followed by passion.

BYE

future

2007-04-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

Today was fun. Brewerkz, together with a voucher means relatively free Brewerkz food. Beer was in abundance, 2 puked after meal. I was safe. HERO. Sat down by the quay side and tried to be crazy, then next stop, partyworld. I was BLANJAED cos i have no cash. AS USUAL.

I missed Ivan's birthday party though. It all clashed, and I was sick as well. FEVER. I missed my grandma's birthday gathering as well, but I'll be filial.

I need to sleep.
BYE

make no haste, since time stood still
heart beats faster ever since my windows
set upon you.
Making sure this is not reality
i chased my old self just to prove this true.
lets take time, you and I.

BLAH

2007-04-21T05:30:00.000-07:00

SHIT, i woke up suddenly and I'm feeling hungry. I want to make some kaya toast for myself but I'm lazy. My laptop is still playing MINERAL. SO EMO SO SAD SO GOOD. I need to get back to sleep or else i'll be bloody tired tmrw and i'll waste my whole day again.

I figured most of my friends grew up, cos I was reading ray's, liu's and eric's blog just now. I didnt know why, i just sort of logged in recently and I started my craze. So I went to read up. They do not blog anymore. haha. Well i dont know. Maybe this is like an EMO DIARY or something to me. My silent friend, who seriously, shuts the fuck up when i want to talk. Oh, and i haven't seen Liu for a while

IF I COULD
She stepped outside into the morning air
To watch the cars go by and let the sun dry her hair
I wanted to tell her how beautiful she was but
I just stared.

I sat behind the wheel and watched the raindrops
as they gathered on the windshield
and raced down into the humming motor
and she folded up her fears like paper airplanes
and lost them in the trees.

and I know I don't deserve this
the capacity to feel
to laugh to cry and to praise
for that I live and breathe and wake each day
is nothing less than your grace
in awkward and glorious movement.

"Its just one weeeeeeeeeeeek" That was what she told me. I seriously wish she'll just send a msg or something now, but I know It'llllll neverrrrrrrrrr happen. Well, genie's dont exist do they?

okay, fuck sleep, winning 11
BYE

superheroes

2007-04-21T02:43:00.000-07:00

I have a secret.

I am actually, a super hero.

you judged a book by its cover

2007-04-21T02:19:00.000-07:00

All of us are chasing for love. It is the most useless and destructive kind of thing that we cannot control ourselves to not search for. I am not desperate for a girlfriend BUT people think so.

Im happy this way, getting high, wasting time, and being myself, so WHY do I need someone? OR Why does it always seem that I need someone? Do I look desperate? Do I potray an image that I need love? DO I DO I ?!

I enjoy being single, I like to be alone, I like hanging out with my friends, I like to play! I can do anything ALONE! So why! WHY is it that people say I need a GF?! WHY?!

aiyerrrrrrr.......................................

dance please

2007-04-18T17:30:00.000-07:00

Yes i know my font size is small, so just make do with it, what do you want me to do about it?!

Oh today is the 2nd day of school, so called school, cos its retained, its disrupted, so its not normal, so its not really school. Its more like: you head back for something you haven't complete. (BUT I COMPLETED IT!!)

I believe eveything that we do, luck plays a part in it. If you're unlucky, you meet the badER side of life. This is how i put it, life, has 2 sides, its 2D, its flat, but when you flip it over, this 2D plain piece of SHEET, you find the ugly part. So, basically, some people's lives are 3D, so they enjoy better, since all sides they flip it, they get an all rounded image. You get what I mean? I know YOU dont!

"A child embarassed by his mother, is just a child who hasn't lived long enough." I got this off Albom's "For one more day" Its true! At times, i do feel that i have not lived long enough to really understand what my mum does for me. I mean, as compared to when i was younger like 15 or 16, I was really, embarassed by what she did. Looking for me at the LAN shop, slapping me in front of the public, that sort of thing. You see, but now, i do not really get embarassed by what she does. She's getting old, and all i have to do or need to do, is shower her with the love she had given me all this while back to her. She is women after all, right? and all women needs love,be it her spouse, a friend, they would want to be treated nicely, so always be nice to girls. They're created for the purpose of allowing guys to show their love, and i guess that is the simpliest way, a guy can show it.

Kids these days don't know what they're getting. They're all so lucky. They get the sun, the moon, the stars, but they always want the whole universe. In conjunction to their age, they're immature. They think too much for themselves sometimes. Im only 20, yet, i think i have lived a life of 60, that is times 3 the age and everything that comes along. The thinking, the way I act, my rationale, its all good ole 60, just like an old man.

I hate to blog, but words describe my feelings better. I can go on forever, just to let you see how i view this life, but my life is not going to revolve around yours, so take what you need and just leave everything you don't need behind. I'll take away all that pain for you.

well and, "you don't need a reason to...get down on the dance floor."

left behind

2007-04-15T05:44:00.000-07:00

I retained.

What is so bad about it really, except for maybe the fact that i'll be bugged by parental problems again. Its unfair cos Im the only one who retained. The worse thing is, its BTN, taught by chang yoon ching. I dont even want to strain my fingers to CAPS his name, he is just such a waste of space living around still. Hell has a better meaning for him, maybe as a soul collector or some apparition that drains life. Student's life. He can also be his usual self, a cheeeeko, but a dead one.

Dumb. Nothing feels good, but its like as if anything felt good before. I forgot the feeling of feeling good, or rather the feeling of good feeling. I forgot what real happiness felt like, i forgot how to laugh, i forgot everything. I only remembered this wretched thing called pain. This feeling feels much more real than the others. At least, of the basic five senses we have, i can use them to experience pain more than happiness. Happiness is nothing anyways.

Then whats something? More pain? I dont know.

plans

2007-01-11T15:40:00.000-08:00

This is a place where we only say good bye.
And nothing else can exceptionally bring me to you.
The decending peaks on ECG falls.
Your breathing slows time down.
Someone's taking you away from me.

I see you in RG hue and the B is on me.
I'm feeling down but you don't see it.
This is a place where we only say good bye.
Please dont leave before before i do.

we make up 150, a decade old towards two.
50 is the timeline you've been in mine.
I'm glad you did.
Just let me leave before you.

Just let me leave before you.

weep

2006-12-31T17:30:00.000-08:00

We cry because our tear ducts are irritated by stupid emotions we feel and this feeling is in turn, transmitted to the brain which then generates signals to the ducts, so we cry.

Remove the tear duct, I'll say.

And fuck the signals. From the back. OOMPHFF!!

time is NOT money

2006-12-30T14:50:00.000-08:00

If you could turn back time, what would you do?

I would want to meet Marilyn Monroe, witness the nuclear bombings on Japan(from far away), shake hands with Hitler(Im a villan), kill baby g.w.BUSH, ride on Trex-es, destroy money, go pearl harbour and warn the people that Japanese are coming.

There is always an IF ONLY. Nothings real, so...let's just get high.

24hrs

2006-12-29T14:20:00.000-08:00

I cleard my fucking bills and now i can make a call with my phone. SO CALL ME still, I cant spend too much.

Realised i cant have so many late nights out, it is killing me. I'm not having enough sleep and I feel im changing colour. Golden to black to fair to yellow.

By the way, this blog is to satisfy my needs to evacuate from reality. It is for me to crap and type without thinking. For a better understanding of my "inner self", PLEASE VISIT: timeis-tickingout.blogspot.com

The other blog consists of stories i wrote, which MAY soon be published on a website for young writers. Currently, there are not much stories there since i lost my last blog: windowslive2003.blogspot.com, do visit this site too as there are about 12 stories there which i wrote before i lost it.

**But anyway, I won't be updating windowslive2003 anymore, so if you're interested to read more, check timeis-tickingout for updates.

sugar

2006-12-26T23:30:00.000-08:00

I like chocolate and sweet stuff a lot.

I can: finish 6 strips of mentos in 3 hours.
eat chocolate like theres no tomorrow
down honey without mixing with water
condensed milk means nothing to me
ribena syrup tastes excellent
caramel is perfect everyday

SWEET STUFF IS NICE man.

I'll be working, but I like being broke, that is, when I do not need anything.

lame.

2006-12-26T20:30:00.000-08:00

What a good day for swimming, it has been raining the whole day, i bet there are pools of water out there waiting !!